This is my battle and I surrendered. The enemy has won and I look at the loss and realize that I lost you. The aftermath of it all leaves me empty and broken. Where all I’m left is my own selfishness and greed, my own doubts and limitations, I see where I fall short and how much I need you.
You promise me that they may have won the battle but they will not win the war. When will I win a battle? When will I have you by my side?
When will I realize…I have everything I need, right here?
I can’t stand life
I live my life trying my best for God, doing everything that I can to do what God wants me to do, and little to I realize that in this process, I’m missing out on what God has promised me…LIFE! I can get so caught up on “doing God’s work” that I don’t take the time to enjoy what he has already given me. Yeah, it’s great to do God’s work and it’s important but why am I so nieve to think that his work won’t get done if I don’t do it? Yeah I want to be bless by God but I know it’s going to get done.
When it comes down to it…I just want to be loved. That’s all I want. I just want to be loved. I’m just a little kid that wants to be loved.
‘Cause I’m so tired
of living for
The kind of love
That only comes and goes
The pain, the shame
It tears me up inside…
How about a loud yell for the new year!
My resolutions:
- Journal more often
- Seek to be closer to God’s heart
- Live for today
Make a joyful noise!