Linus Soh

Me, Katherine and Christine went out on the town last night. I came home, finished my book and drove around College Park for about an hour looking for restaurant to get food because the two ladies didn’t want to stay inside the commons.

It was a very eventful night as we checked out every restaurant in College Park and confirmed that the good majority of them were in fact closed on Thanksgiving. Needless to see, we did find a restaurant. They enjoyed the hot turkey sandwich, one with French Fries with gravy, the other with mash potatoes.

Ah…What are you thankful for?

Sometimes I can’t stand waiting for God. It’s one of those deals where you know it’s the right thing to do but God tells you to be patient and wait. I CAN’T BE PATIENT!!!

Why am I patient? Outside of the fact that it’s within God’s will, I guess I’m patient because I know that I’m not ready and have a lot of maturing to do.

What do I do in the mean time to not be distracted by the world? How do I focus my energies to continuing to do God’s work?

*sigh* And so I wait for you…

One of the most frustrating things is waiting for God’s timing. Has anyone else ever experienced this? Instead of praying for God to help me make a decision, it’s more like “God, I’m making this decision and help it come to pass.”

It’s amazing that I still do this. Instead of involving God in the process of deciding what to do, I decide and then I ask God to move. I don’t think it’s suppose to be like this.

I’m beginning to realize that my heart wants to wake up from it’s slumber. I have to admit that it’s hard to focus my energy to the work at hand.

What I always find amazing is that in the culture that we live, people put a lot of stock into “love” and don’t think about the consequences. C.S. Lewis said that love requires pain. That the total absence of love is in Hell.

I wonder how people, especially women, can be deceived. Granted, there are relationships that have a firm foundation of trust and honesty and I admire them. They have the courage and the strength to endure fights and arguments. I’m talking about relationships that are based on sex and empty promises. I can’t tell you the number of couples I see that are just all over each other. In order to get love, the woman gives herself up. And for the man, he gives her attention.

Isn’t amazing how God has wired us all differently? John Eldredge says it this way. Men are wired to be aroused with the eyes. I think there is no denying this. What about women? He says that women are aroused by touch.

It makes sense then that people could equate these things with love. I know that I did. I equated sex with love. This meant love to me. I know my girlfriend at the time believed that me holding her in my arms was love. And if you would have asked me how I know I love my girlfriend, it is because I hold her in my arms.

Love is so confusing…But I’m still hanging by a moment. Waiting to see what God has to offer in me waiting for his timing.

I’m hanging by a moment, here, with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
Standing here until you make me move
Hanging by a moment here with you.

In a world dictated by sex, money and selfishness, it can be hard to see the beauty of God. I admit that it’s a challenge. But it’s there if you look hard.

When a couple declares that they want to remain pure not just to God but to each other, there lies hope. When a young Christian takes up arms and says that he wants to battle for the hearts of the campus, there lies ambition. When someone realizes that they are screwed up and begins to search the world for God, there lies providence.

The battle for the hearts and minds of people will always be hard and difficult. But the battle for students is even harder.

As I began this internship journey, I wanted to see what God would do. God showed me how this world is broken but how there lies hope. Just as a candle lights up a dark room, this campus will awake to see the glory of God.

The battle is fierce. Swords are wielded and shields clash. But as the battle wages on, the Trumpets of Zion blare, declaring victory of the Lord for he has already won the battle. We fight in faith of that victory.

Front-line battle. Nowhere but here.

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