Hanging by a moment
One of the most frustrating things is waiting for God’s timing. Has anyone else ever experienced this? Instead of praying for God to help me make a decision, it’s more like “God, I’m making this decision and help it come to pass.”
It’s amazing that I still do this. Instead of involving God in the process of deciding what to do, I decide and then I ask God to move. I don’t think it’s suppose to be like this.
I’m beginning to realize that my heart wants to wake up from it’s slumber. I have to admit that it’s hard to focus my energy to the work at hand.
What I always find amazing is that in the culture that we live, people put a lot of stock into “love” and don’t think about the consequences. C.S. Lewis said that love requires pain. That the total absence of love is in Hell.
I wonder how people, especially women, can be deceived. Granted, there are relationships that have a firm foundation of trust and honesty and I admire them. They have the courage and the strength to endure fights and arguments. I’m talking about relationships that are based on sex and empty promises. I can’t tell you the number of couples I see that are just all over each other. In order to get love, the woman gives herself up. And for the man, he gives her attention.
Isn’t amazing how God has wired us all differently? John Eldredge says it this way. Men are wired to be aroused with the eyes. I think there is no denying this. What about women? He says that women are aroused by touch.
It makes sense then that people could equate these things with love. I know that I did. I equated sex with love. This meant love to me. I know my girlfriend at the time believed that me holding her in my arms was love. And if you would have asked me how I know I love my girlfriend, it is because I hold her in my arms.
Love is so confusing…But I’m still hanging by a moment. Waiting to see what God has to offer in me waiting for his timing.
I’m hanging by a moment, here, with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
Standing here until you make me move
Hanging by a moment here with you.
In my experience, when you stop asking God to move, and start asking Him to lead, that he does move! And often in the way you wanted! But not until you realize that it was because HE wanted to mvoe there, and not because you wanted him to.