Linus Soh

I’m so confused by our culture. I feel so alien from the things that are going on in the society. I wish I knew what to think or how to feel because it drives me nuts sometimes.

I think the place that makes me confused is how people differentiate between what they believe to why they believe. I think this goes for anyone that believes in anything. I even think to why I believe in a relational God. I can give you the “church” answers and the “right” answers…but I’ve come to a place where this isn’t enough.

And I wonder if others have felt this as well. Even those that believe things that I do and don’t. For those that believe that homosexuality is a right, what is your reason why you believe this to be true? You can give me the PC-answers and I want to know why you think it’s right and true.

I often contemplate about why our society no longer wants this type of personalization. I think political parties is a great example. Why are you affiliated with whom you are affiliated? Do you believe in their values? Why? If not, what don’t you like about those values? If so, what values do you agree with? And then why? How have they become true for you?

Deconstructing the mind…ah, what a fun thing to do.

I’ve also noticed that I enjoy just talking with people. Even with those with diverse beliefs, cultures, family structures, etc. Granted, I’m not good at it all the time, I really want to get to know them. I come from the mindset that everyone has a story to share. (that’s why I’m a writer!) And I often find myself curious about other people’s experiences. I find them fascinating. And this might make me sound like a real jerk but I enjoy hearing about the fears and the doubts that someone has…because I find myself relating to them so much.

I don’t think we’re all the same. I think we all come from different places and I think that is so exciting! I can learn so much from someone who’s from a different state, or even a different town (maybe even the same town).

Sometimes I wish I can erase this wall that I have from talking with people I don’t know.

My own insecurities.

I hope today will be a cool day. I’m still kind of sick…I’ve got nasty phlegm. Pleh!

Google news search for articles related to the ‘politics’ of the ban

I have not found one article that reports on groups or persons who are excited about this “ban.”

I should point out that the Google News search engine may also be biased. Please take this into account when making your opinion. To be honest, I don’t know how the engine works. I encourage you to try the following key words to see what you get:

• bush supports marriage
• bush marriage supporters

if you find some keywords that do better than these, please leave a comment!

Bush back ban on gay marriage (Reuters)

Bush Backs Amendment Banning Gay Marriage (Washington Post)

President Bush’s Support of Marriage Amendment “Critical” to Protecting Sanctity of Marriage (ACLJ)

Google News Search regarding Bush’s statement

The Official White House Statement

So why am I posting these links? I’ve noticed that the news does a HORRIBLE job reporting the news in a fair, non-judging way. Notice that most article titles say “ban gay marriages” instead of “supports the constitution of marriage”.

And notice, Bush did not at any time during his message yesterday say explicitly “ban gay marriage”; instead he said he supported the amendment to define marriage as one man and one woman. Notice the rhetoric. Let’s go outside the fact that Bush never said these words. Let’s go outside the idea that the media is twisting what the President said.

Are noticing the bias? If the newspapers were in fact reporting the news in an un-bias fashion, they would have said “Bush expresses his support of marriage constitution amendment” or “Bush backs ‘one man and one wife’”. That’s the news. That’s the facts.

But of course, Reuters, the Washington Post, The New York Times and many other “reputable” news sources aren’t interested in just reporting the news. No, they’re interested in passing their agenda along with the news.

Read these articles that I’ve linked. Read other articles that actually show the facts. Make your judgement.

The news is twisted.

You’ve been warned.

I had probably the most stressful day so far this year. I had back-to-back meetings/classes/appointments from 9 AM – 10 PM. BACK TO BACK!

Around 7ish last night, I was so beat, so tired from doing everything that a student does. I was ready to quit. If you had asked me if I wanted out, I would have taken it. No joke.

Then I remembered that in times when I feel like crap, stressed, I’m called to draw deep from God. And as I sat in my small group, listening to how people are “called” to things, I began to pray, “God, I don’t want to be stressed, but I am. And I know you’ve called me here. Give me the patience to be stressed and continue through tonight.”

My day didn’t end until 11 PM.

And I’m still here.

You ever get the feeling like your mussels are whithering away because you’re not working out?

Yeah, that’s what I feel every day. I think it’s because all I do is sit on my butt all day and not do anything active. I probably should go for a walk every now and again.

It’s sad when I can’t even go up a flight of stairs without being winded.

Geez

A God that is so perfect that I cannot fathom the word.
A God that is so loving that I don’t know what it feels like without him.
A God that is so creative that I cannot imagine the world.
A God that is so.

I am so shameful of my sin that I cannot look his way.
I am so empty that I hope to be filled again.
I am so desperate that I look for hope in myself.
But find none.

Could you want me?
A man with nothing to give you
Except my grief and strife
A man that only wants you in his spare time?
Could you want me?

To be so free
To be so there
To be in your arms

Everything.