So confused
I’m so confused by our culture. I feel so alien from the things that are going on in the society. I wish I knew what to think or how to feel because it drives me nuts sometimes.
I think the place that makes me confused is how people differentiate between what they believe to why they believe. I think this goes for anyone that believes in anything. I even think to why I believe in a relational God. I can give you the “church” answers and the “right” answers…but I’ve come to a place where this isn’t enough.
And I wonder if others have felt this as well. Even those that believe things that I do and don’t. For those that believe that homosexuality is a right, what is your reason why you believe this to be true? You can give me the PC-answers and I want to know why you think it’s right and true.
I often contemplate about why our society no longer wants this type of personalization. I think political parties is a great example. Why are you affiliated with whom you are affiliated? Do you believe in their values? Why? If not, what don’t you like about those values? If so, what values do you agree with? And then why? How have they become true for you?
Deconstructing the mind…ah, what a fun thing to do.
I’ve also noticed that I enjoy just talking with people. Even with those with diverse beliefs, cultures, family structures, etc. Granted, I’m not good at it all the time, I really want to get to know them. I come from the mindset that everyone has a story to share. (that’s why I’m a writer!) And I often find myself curious about other people’s experiences. I find them fascinating. And this might make me sound like a real jerk but I enjoy hearing about the fears and the doubts that someone has…because I find myself relating to them so much.
I don’t think we’re all the same. I think we all come from different places and I think that is so exciting! I can learn so much from someone who’s from a different state, or even a different town (maybe even the same town).
Sometimes I wish I can erase this wall that I have from talking with people I don’t know.
My own insecurities.
I hope today will be a cool day. I’m still kind of sick…I’ve got nasty phlegm. Pleh!