Linus Soh

Today has been a very challenging day…

it looks like the storm has passed…which means we’ll probably have school tomorrow.

*sigh*

I HATE snow. I really do…

The calm before the storm:

(I love imageshack!)

I can tell you right now that the storm is going to hit us hard. My knee is driving me CRAZY which is a pretty good bet that we’re going to at least get a low-pressure system.

I forgot to check my mail yesterday and I’m sort of glad. When I checked my mail today, I found out that I’ve been nominated for the Byrd Citizenship Prize and the Wison H. Elkins Citizenship Award. (You’ll find their descriptions below.)

Jeff nominated me…which kind of makes me nervous. But I’m excited that I’m being considered for these awards. I don’t think I’ll win them…I’m sure there are others who are more qualified. But here’s walking…

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The Byrd Citizenship Prizes are presented as a memorial to the late President Emeritus H.C. Byrd and Sally Sterling Byrd, to the male and female member of the senior class who during their collegiate careers have most nearly typified the model citizen and have contributed significantly to the general advancement of the interests of the University.

The Wilson H. Elkins Citizenship Award is presented to a senior who has displayed outstanding involvement and leadership in campus activities and who has contributed significantly to the general advancement of student affairs.

Ah…the unsung heroes of open-source. Glad to be among them.

Taking this History of Rock Music class makes me very nostalgic of the music of the good ‘ol days. It’s been a fun class to take. And I’m taking it Pass/Fail, which makes it that much sweeter.

I have my first exam in that class today. I’m a little worried…but hey, all I need is a D to pass!

Yay for me.

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I have a long day today. I leave today shortly and won’t return until 12 Midnight….oh well.

I can’t believe the university is closed today! It’s so stupid! It barely looks like snow outside…

*snort*

I’m making strawberry waffles.

I was looking around on slashdot today and found this great article. We all should really read the EULAs of all of our software. Luckily, most Linux software is governed by the GNU General Public License.

Man, I want $1000.

The wonder of the wind, wistful wishful
And contrasted only by the sands on the shore
I begin to wonder where it all starts, where it begins
And I realize the truth: it begins with me.

Where will this end? It goes on and on
Over and over, and over again.
Keeps spinning around, and I know that won’t stop
’till I step down from this for good.

I cannot stand still
I can’t be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening…

This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomorrow morning I’ll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy…

I had a really powerful conversation with Scott today. The question that still drives me is what am I afraid of? What gets me anxious? What do I fear and ultimately why do I fear it?

Good questions. I should really take my own advice: Explore these things and make the time to explore them. Yeah…

From the “wow, I really wrote that?” department, I bring you a blast from the past:

Dream Land

I don’t want the world to see me alone
I don’t want the world to see me cry
The hurt and the pain that I feel in my heart
And the fact that I’m not gonna try
To wake up from this half hazard dream
And live in this place of reality
In a plane of existance that can only be explained
By the lack and ill sense of abnormality.

This Dream Land is nothing but disappointments
With everything to lose and nothing to gain
With the wool that’s been pulled over my eyes
I feel like I’m living in vein.

I can’t wait for this to be over
I can’t wait for this world to see
They never had it all figured out
They never had a guarantee
That there was only one way to salvation
And that way was only with the broken tree.

I want to feel the sun on my lips
And stand with the waves at my feet
I want wake up and live in the place where I’ll see
That life is not only short but bitter-sweet.

I will never be satisifed here in this Dream Land
With things that were made to break and decompose
Like fine China this world can break in an instant
And smell like my dog’s wet toes.

I have to remember that I’m not living for this Dream Land
That there is a destination not far from here.
This is only the next stop on the track
And the road will get darker than it appears.

The last stop is in your arms
And that’s the Dream Land that I’m living for
I want to be satisfied only there
So help me believe in you, to my very core.

Your Dream Land, my hope.

My destination

I have a copy of this posted right next to my file cabinet. I see it all the time but I read it again for the first time in a long time. I had written it about two years ago now and I remember struggling whether I wanted to share this deep poem with my creative writing class. I eventually decided not to. But reminded me that this is where I still wanted to be…

Wondering where the road goes from here…

I’m considering changing linux distributions. Seems like I’m considering a lot of things lately. Right now, I’m using Fedore Linux Core 2 and they keep updating too fast. I mean, overall, this isn’t a bad thing. But when they discontinue a version, they disable the ability to update software.

This happened last year when they released Core 3, and disabled Core 1.

It takes a long time for me to upgrade because I don’t want to do this during the school semester. Too many variables to account for that can go wrong.

So during this last few months being a student, I’m considering going with a new Distro. The big contenders are Gentoo Linux, Slackware, and Fedora Core 4.

I’m probably going to be lazy and just go with FC4. *sigh*…