Linus Soh

I had another weird dream last night. I’m not sure what this dream means but it was visually powerful. The last part of the dream was me, verses almost everyone in the world. It kind of looked like that scene in The Matrix Reloaded where Neo is fighting all of the Agent Smiths, except I was fighting different people. And I was getting even more tired and at the end, these kids come around a corner, dressed in white fatigues. They told me that they were there to help me fight and told me to escape.

I remember looking back, and seeing how out-numbered these kids were. But there were enough of them to hold back the hoard.

I’ve been praying that GOD’s glory would be shown. With everything going on from my friends to my roommate to my own emotions, I’ve just become more and more stressed. During my time with God, I ask him, “What are you trying to teach me? What are you trying to teach our church?” That line from Shaun Groves’ After the Music Fades comes to mind:

I wanna sing.
I wanna fly.
I wanna see from Your side of the sky
I wanna love.
I wanna stay.
I wanna be close to you long after the music fades…

How I long to see what GOD sees. The bigger picture. Coming to a vision near you.

GOD responded to me by saying this: “See my glory.”

See his glory.

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I have a lot of insecurities about getting and receiving gratitude. I’m not really sure where they stem from. But regardless of these, I went ahead and completed the essay portion of the awards that I was nominated for. It was really difficult because everything in me didn’t want to do this. I feel like in many ways, I don’t deserve it.

I haven’t decided if I wanted to post my essay here. If I did, it would probably be posted as a “Friends Only” post, since it does contain some sensitive information. So be sure I add you to my friends list.

I also printed and labeled my ministry updates. They are a bit late, but it was worth it.

I can’t believe it’s been two years of doing part-time ministry. And now I graduate to full-time ministry, assuming I get accepted. I’m excited! I wonder what it’s going to be like…

More stress, less time….

I can’t wait! Let HIS GLORY be shown!