Give all away
Please take from me my life
When I don’t have the strength
To give it away to you Jesus
There is something going on inside my heart right now. I really don’t want to let it go, but I know I should. When things start going crazy, I want to control things all the more. But how can I let it go, without feeling the stress of the unknown? How do I come free from this burden, and really experience LIFE?
I think this is a type of worrying that I’ve never expected. I’ve experienced the life of ministry and how people, including myself, make really poor decisions. And how we never see the consequences of those decisions. I’m really lost with why God continues to put people in my life that are struggling with sin or regret or guilt…and I have become their beacon of hope.
I’ve become so jaded that I can’t see them past the forest. I recognized yesterday that I really need to let go. My issues of control have even cropped up in my personal life. I recognized how much order I really need in my life in order to feel order in the mist of chaos.
Jesus tells me his yoke is easy and light. I sure don’t feel that now. But I want to give it all away to him, and just really trust God that he is doing something in my heart. I need to BELIEVE that God is cares MORE about all of these problems, issues, concerns, policies, friends than I do. And I care about them an awful lot. I don’t know how to make this FEEL true. I know it in my head…but I want to believe it.
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens,
Your faithfulness to the skies.
Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains,
Your justice like the great deep.
How priceless is your unfailing love!Continue your love to those who know you,
your righteousness to the upright in heart.
May the foot of the PROUD not come against me,
nor the hand of the wicked drive me away.
See how the evildoers lie fallen-
thrown DOWN, not able to rise!
“See MY GLORY!”