taking off on saturday
It has been one of the hardest days I’ve had in a long time. I’ve just been on this emotional roller coaster these past few weeks. I got some pretty disappointing news today and it’s really made me depressed.
To the point that I want to cry.
I’m having such a hard time just understanding what’s going on in my heart right now. I think the biggest question I wrestle with is, “Why do I do I do it?”
It has been an off day for me. Since I woke up this morning, I’ve felt off and unbalanced. And even as the day went on, it became very depressing.
There are times that I wonder, “Am I even making a difference? Does it matter?” And I need to remind myself, “That’s not the right question.” The right question is, “Are you doing what God has asked you to do?”
And what kills me, is knowing that I am, and feeling like nothing has changed.
And my world gets more chaotic.
So tonight, I took some time off and took my mind off the world of MCF and GCM and starting planning for my day off this Saturday. And after much thought and prayer, I’ve decided to do some light hiking at Gambrill State Park. I’m planning to leave here Friday afternoon, after an appointment in Ellicott City. I want to camp over-night there and go hiking the next day for the entire day. I want to do each of the hikes AT LEAST once. It will be a long day, but it will be awesome!
I’m really looking forward to getting away. I really need it. It’s been so crazy.
I need a vacation…too bad it’s only a day.