I was listening to this broadcast earlier today. I found it very cool. It’s called God’s Sovereignty and you can download the MP3. I particularly like the conversation he has with God…:-)
So it’s been a long week since I’ve posted…here’s the latest scoop from my neck of the woods…
I’m getting an MRI done next Monday. I’ve been diagnosed Cubital Tunnel Syndrome and the docs want to see how bad it is. I’m afraid I’ll need surgery.
My support raising has slowed down slightly, but I’ve had some recent boosts which has been good. I haven’t raised enough support to even cover my basic living expenses (e.g. food, rent, utilities, etc.). I’m hoping by the end of November I’ll break even. It’s purely God’s grace that I’m still able to eat food.
I’m trying not to go into debt while support raising, which is incredibly hard since I can barely afford food. I’m trying to hold out and eating my savings in the mean time.
I’ve been so stressed lately that I have not been sleeping well, which, in it of itself, has caused major problems throughout the day. I’m grinding my teeth, having unusual cravings, and my emotional energy has gotten really low.
There is just so much going on right now, that I can’t emotionally keep up. I’m having large mood swings, which is really hard when I’m constantly going from one thing to another. And it doesn’t help that people are just dropping like flies out there.
I have a very big church presentation on Sunday…which is the big stresser right now….
So, with all that said, where does that leave this post? Well, I need a lot of prayer. I can’t believe how much has happened in the last DAY let alone this week. Please pray that God will give me peace about everything. I really want to believe that God is sovereign…and that he sees the things I can’t see. And that he is still here, with me, crying with me, let me know that everything is okay.
I really just need a vacation.
My suggestion for improving tag support is being worked on!! That’s so cool!!!
Look for it at a client near you!
Now that I’m feeling better, I spent 10 hours today working on all the back-logged paperwork I had to do. 10 friggin’ hours! Man, I really hate it…but, the good news is that it’s all done.
I also worked a little more on my web site. I figured out how to do this really cool thing with CSS. If you go to my web site and look for links that go outside the site, a cool icon should show up. It’s the “external link” icon from wikipedia. I’ll soon be embedding new CSS stuff as time goes on…I didn’t realize how cool I could make it.
well, I’m going to bread now…good night all!
so I’m still sick.
And it’s worse. I went to the doctors today and turns out that I got a sinus infection. Which sucks because it makes me really dizzy.
So in the last week, I’ve spent more hours watching TV than I have since I’ve graduated. It’s quite sad, really.
I’ve been too dizzy, until about today, to do any sort of computer work.
So, in the world of doing absolutely nothing, I stumbled upon one of the greatest links in all of the Internet:
http://exploration.grc.nasa.gov/balloon/blob.htm
Check it out…
Dear Jen,
When I first heard about your divorce, I was quite shocked. I thought you and Brad were perfect for each other. I’ve never been married, but I know that it can’t be easy and I’m sure you feel hurt and betrayed.
Just know, that there’s a nice guy in Maryland if you ever want to chat. Feel free to give me a call or shot me an e-mail. I’ll be there for you…
I’m feeling silly now that I’m feeling better…:-)
So I have the full-on cold now. What I’ve been doing all day is trying to work, and getting too frustrated that I can’t think straight…
So I’ve been watching TV and playing mind-numbing video games. What’s worse is that I cancelled my appointments for tomorrow. It’s quite depressing. I really need to raise support…
So today, I’ve done a lot of praying. And I don’t know why but I just don’t have any peace in my heart. One of my roommates is about to get married this Saturday. So much is changing…it makes me ask the question, “Why aren’t I feeling okay about it?”
I don’t think it’s related to one specific thing. I think, overall, I’m just really stressed. I really need to relax…and yet I demand my body to continue to function.
It’s not that easy…
I really like this song by Caedmon’s Call:
♫Sometimes I believe all the lies
So I can do the things I should despise
And every day I am swayed
By whatever is on my mindI hear it all depends on my faith
So I’m feeling precarious
The only problem I have with these mysteries
Is they’re so mysteriousAnd like a consumer I’ve been thinking
If I could just get a bit more
More than my 15 minutes of faith
Then I’d be secureMy faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on graceI’ve begged you for some proof
For my Thomas eyes to see
A slithering staff, a leprous hand
And lions resting lazilyA glimpse of your back-side glory
And this soaked altar going ablaze
But you know I’ve seen so much
I explained it awayMy faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on graceWaters rose as my doubts reigned
My sand-castle faith, it slipped away
Found myself standing on your grace
It’d been there all the timeMy faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on grace…♫
Lord, I want more of you
Living water rain down on me
Lord, I need more of you
Living breath of life come fill me up…
Being sick.
It sucks. I hate that feeling right before I get sick, when my throat gets all scratchy and yucky. Oh and you know the worst part? When you get sick and all delirious and all you can do is blog stupidly about it.
Because it sucks.
All of you that had this cold and decided to share…Thank you.