Bad: Being sick. Worse: Being sick and not going to work.
So I have the full-on cold now. What I’ve been doing all day is trying to work, and getting too frustrated that I can’t think straight…
So I’ve been watching TV and playing mind-numbing video games. What’s worse is that I cancelled my appointments for tomorrow. It’s quite depressing. I really need to raise support…
So today, I’ve done a lot of praying. And I don’t know why but I just don’t have any peace in my heart. One of my roommates is about to get married this Saturday. So much is changing…it makes me ask the question, “Why aren’t I feeling okay about it?”
I don’t think it’s related to one specific thing. I think, overall, I’m just really stressed. I really need to relax…and yet I demand my body to continue to function.
It’s not that easy…
I really like this song by Caedmon’s Call:
♫Sometimes I believe all the lies
So I can do the things I should despise
And every day I am swayed
By whatever is on my mindI hear it all depends on my faith
So I’m feeling precarious
The only problem I have with these mysteries
Is they’re so mysteriousAnd like a consumer I’ve been thinking
If I could just get a bit more
More than my 15 minutes of faith
Then I’d be secureMy faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on graceI’ve begged you for some proof
For my Thomas eyes to see
A slithering staff, a leprous hand
And lions resting lazilyA glimpse of your back-side glory
And this soaked altar going ablaze
But you know I’ve seen so much
I explained it awayMy faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on graceWaters rose as my doubts reigned
My sand-castle faith, it slipped away
Found myself standing on your grace
It’d been there all the timeMy faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on grace…♫
Lord, I want more of you
Living water rain down on me
Lord, I need more of you
Living breath of life come fill me up…