Linus Soh

As I continue to job search, I’m get excited about moving into "the real world." I think it hits all eventually, but it’s so weird. You’re growing up. You’re out on your own.

You’re responsible.

It feels heavy, but in a way it’s kind of cool. You being to realize that you actually are responsible for a lot of things. But in another way, growing up kind of sucks.

I remember when I was a kid, the biggest worry in my life was wondering if a cartoon was going to be a rerun. Really, that was it. That and getting ready for Halloween.

There is many changes in my life and I’m feeling overwhelmed. I’ll be moving soon…don’t know where yet. I’m looking for a real job. I’m moving to another church. I’m making new friends. I am getting my parents car. I’ll be paying my own insurance.

It’s crazy, but it’s good.One of the biggest questions that I’ve wrestled with is "Is this your will?" I’ve prayed a lot about these different situations. While I believe in faith that this is where he’s leading, I can’t but help to feel sad about everything and everyone I’ll be leaving behind. It’s hard to imagine a life that is so different than the one I have now. It feels surreal in many ways, but I can’t help but feel optimistic of what the future will hold.

I’m in the process of finding an apartment and some roommates. This is a much more difficult task than I had envisioned. I feel like I’m dating, like, 10 people because I’ve been asking them some tough questions about their lifestyle, etc. It’s difficult because it’s hard to be picky when you’re desperate. I want to have faith that God cares about who I live with and even where I live.

For now, life is calm. For now, life is normal.